Lonely in crowd

Lot of people around,

But still alone

So many conversations going on ,

But no one to have a word

Things flowing on a fast pace,

But still in my own space..

Words pouring in ears from all sides,

But not a single going in mind..

A cyclone going inside,

Stuffed,stunned and silent,

Trying to hide ,

but eyes don't allow..

Keep pouring and speaking louder then voice.

Wiping them before they catch peoples eyes,

Maintaining the silence

Pretending to be fine..

This is what I feel when there are hundreds of things going around me, so many problems, so many confusions that I go in a shell and just cannot express myself.People around me are there talking and just being normal, but for me no one exists . i am physically there , but mentally i am on a trip. Everything seems blued . Feeling as if a few hundred thousand of my brain cells have been killed, and I just cant react.
In this situation if anyone asks that" what happened " I know my tears will burst, so I try and isolate myself and talk my time to absorb everything.

This is what I do in such situation, do you people have any other way to escape such times..

Please suggest..!!